day 5

woke up and saw 4 calls from mikewu so i ignored and went to call my moms. she first doesnt give me the monthly and then i ask her to find out about the fidelis crap and finds out that it was not me but my brother. i was like wow and i ended up going to seward and cancelling my therapy appointment. then yeah around 12 we got the fuck out or 1 not sure. to get some food and stuff. then hit up billiards at soho and played for mad long. i fucked shit up big time. anyway that was around 4:40 when we got out. then walked all the way on broadway to get chipotle or at least some did. freeloaded of drinks and shit. then hit up gamestop lmao played some games and got the fuck out. headed straight for seward. played some basketball or at least got some shots in. then it was knockout which was pretty interesting since u go hard but not really hard. then yeah left to go to dinner at some crappy place. ate there last year for grandpas but this time for aunt. yeah that shit took mad long. got there around 8ish and started around 820 and got out around 1010ish. hit up susan to see where everyone is and found out was at popeyes. i headed in and it was mad chilled. then mad stupid shit happens. ask stupid ass questions. dont even understand. clearly when i do so it is not appropriate but any other thing is possible. yeah stupid. pace and chilled there. left after a while and shit. yeah.. handball academy 9:00 a.m. sharp. if not 2 laps! pandah out

day 4

hmm boring ass motherfucking day in the morning. got up and killed time until 1230 and then headed out to seward. saw mikehuang on delancey and met up and went to seward. called on both courts and stuff and got to play a little bit of ace ball. lmao i remembered i completely failed at life and knocked the ball completely to the right. anyway we got a big ball afterwards and fucked shit up. slacked off and they caught up. it was like 25 18 at the end but oh wells. my arm died out that game so i started underhanding it. hmm basically the same as all the other day. watch handball. drink water. sweat. talk and listen to music. day ends and we start walking home. annie and susan doesnt want to home and they were like come on and stuff so i ended up accompanying them. went to pace and sat down and played 3 man contact. mad lame cuz they wrecked me with hints that i do not know of. then later conroy mike dennis mike frankie came. talked a little more and headed to popeyes. susan got 2 biscuits and dennis got 5 piece bonafide mike got a drink. lmao some mexican dude was mad annoying there but i dont know the real story behind it since i wasn't at the moment of truth. anyway we started heading home right afterwards. darn day ended just like that. its already been a month and it feels like its been so short. some random thing in the morning and then therapy and then whatever i have to do for the rest of the day. pandah out

day 3

lol where do i start... woke up to get metrocards from mom after i swiped her through. then used computer for a while then fell asleep. it was 12:14 when i woke up back up and i had to do whatever until 1. did all my stuff and started going to therapy. therapy was lame except it was kinda tiring from doing certain exercises. other than that it was the same. took m14a to seward expecting it to be less of the heads i usually see. but yeah ppl were there. i walk in and yea hit around and sat around. mikehuang picked me up and played so i did so for next game. that was lame cuz my left hand is probably overused and mad tired.. but it's my theory of my arm getting stronger so it has its up and down. i basically sat around the whole time doing nothing and wasting money.. ima starve myself now and just attempt to freeload off water to quench thirst. wasted like $20 in less than 24hrs. lol i also hear susan's rant and it was interesting. i get to hear her side of the story and whatever so it's a new ... experience? day ends by going to pace, popeyes and w/e. omg kinda tight cuz there was this hispanic lady on the seat close by and i probably said it a bit too loud. i did not expect others to eavesdrop on our shit so im tight. so yeah they headed to pace and i ended up leaving with dennis and mikehuang. talked about something i already had in mind and i was like YEAH they should hurry their shit up. stalling that shit. pandah out

day 2

woke up at 9:03. then headed to the chinese bank at bowery to cash out a check for my moms. yep took $20 from it so its all good. moms bought me yeen yerng and some bao's and i headed to grand good side to sit. there was this one dude hitting around but was lame. so i just sat and ate and drank. finished and walked home. got home and it was like 10:24 lol somehow i remember the exact time... anyway i call mikehuang or something and he says he overslept for school. mikewu says he overslept and was at the library and i told him to go to seward. dennis comes out of nowhere stalking me with his stalker skills and im's me and later calls me wtshit. so i play a game with mikewu when i got there which was lame cuz we could have left them under 10 but it was training for mike since i let him use left serves only. anyway i could care less of the order of who came today either way i got to play a lot surprisingly. forgot the games but it was lame LMAO. hmmm oh yeah it was mad chilled for a while. and i listened to susan rant? yea rant about stuff. it was quite interesting since i got something to talk about too and it was in common what a coincidence. but yeah games go on and then it was dinner time. so yeah i was trying to go with the plan but it failed horribly. everyone sucks and decided to stick as a group. fail. dinner was so stupid. nvr going to happy time again bcuz of stupid dumb service and their epic smart ass tip included in bill status. means u cant pay less tip and shit. and then it was pace. it was the funnest part of the day even though i didn't do much. i was relaxed and i like that feeling. i just like it peaceful. its mad fun to look into the sky and stare randomly. tomorows therapy and i dont know how the rest is going to go down from here. but im preparing to be ready. so im good.

day 1

woke up planning to go to therapy. first thing i do is look at my computer table and i see that theres no metro card... so i call my moms and she said that i said that i had no therapy. lmao she probably heard wrong since it was during night and she was probably half asleep when she asked me. so i immediately called the hospital and therapy number and canceled it. i have to reschedule one for this week though so yeah that sucks. i decide to head to seward after takin a shower since mikewu said he was there. went there saw mikewu jessica jason. then simon tony came and we all headed to dynasty. they bought their stuff, some took their stuff. headed to ctowntown or however its spelled. bought some drinks and headed to florences place. lmao raided that shit and sat on the couch the most i believe. couch potato damn.. but i don't want to lose my seat so its all good. they did their sushi thing, i did my chilling thing. it was all chilled. grown up and pokemon deoxys. watched random youtube videos. left later on and stuff. headed to pace to chill. played slap up and down. 5 card poker with draw. annie simon mike mike susan went to popeyes and i ended up leaving with tony. had interesting talk about this game show lmfao. day ended right there.

hah

living the life of a fake cuz i am a fake trying to live in reality. hopefully i can come to realization and find out who iam u knw?

day starts. lmao today is 2nd day of handball academy. i woke up at 9:40... and i saw it was sunny too. i waslike wow even after it rained mad hard last night. i spammed called mikewu and that nigga did not wake up. so he woke up at like 10 something and i imed him and shit and i headed out. came to seward and i saw mad pubs. LMAO thats my new line for noobs. anyway i played this dude in black wearing a headband that i saw yesterday. anyway mike comes over after i play that guy twice. well he's a new player but no offense i would have studied the game before actually attempting it. lmao handball is the only thing i've ever studied... anyway it was 21 2 then 21 4 oh man i feel bad to have gave him a few points. so when i saw my ass down on the chair i texted susan and stuff and asked coincidentally bcuz i remembered yesterday that he was playing on that side where susan was, so i asked her about him and yeah and stuff. and i ask her to come out and she gets out pretty fast. anyways mike is training as i tell him a few stuff to work on. lmao he claims im a bad teacher cuz i dont have my material made up but instead its on the go. but he claims that he got his underhand down. hmm good then means u've been learning. anyways he didn't pass the first lesson so im still mad. he also in laughter spoke of his first ever victory in handball. hehe. oh yeah so like who was at seward... oh yeah mike garjin zehao then came susan and i forgot how the rest went lmao. listened to music watch ppl play handball. it was good since i get to study as well. shit ended up raining later on like wth. so everyone headed to jacks. me mike and susan headed to north dumplings and i sat watching them eat. we entered jacks and it was all dead and found out everyone headed to mee? mee's cafe or something. chilled there for mad long and then ended up leaving after something and headed to mcdonalds. some stayed some left which included me to pathmark. i quickly scrolled through the place and got my string cheese and left like the ninja i am back to mcdonalds. shared the string cheese with every1 and the pathmark group got here after a while. amy and conroy were off in their own little world somewhere else. we then all split up as me annie susan went to chill around and every1 else went to soho. we headed up to some seats near riverside close to seaport. chilled and relaxed so that makes us chillaxed listening to music and camerawhoring shit up. lmao. made some epic pictures and after a hour of that pace was the next location. got there then mike and mike. then amy and conroy lol. chilled and stuff. kinda tight when annie punched me in the balls... or more like my right one. i forgot the reason y too... but yeah kinda got boring since there wasn't really anything to do. ended up going home around 9:35ish or passed that. hmm oh wells pandah is out for therapy tomorrow peacers

i like today :D

hmm woke my ass up at 8:58 again? idk weird huh. anyways woke up turned up computer and started calling mikewu. it was our first day at handball academy where the outstanding solomon was the teacher and he was the student. so yeah i call this niggah multiple times and this nigga wakes up around 9:20ish. telling his ass to come and shit and he ends up coming to seward around 10:16... nigga is a hour and 16mins late. anyway. lmao started with the most basic shit. and he failed that shit lmao. a better swing. like i was saying, his swing looks like a flabby skin but yeah he failed horribly! next i told him to try to hit with his fingers placed together. his fingers r always opened up for some reason to grab something or some other reason. anyway still failed that part too. lol. next up was quite easy. try to hit the ball from behind the long line pass the short line with all different swings. he got that easily. next was kills which practiced his accuracy and some other stuff. from the long line he had to kill underhand, sidearm, overhand with his right at a certain height that i chose to be considered a low kill. took a long fucking while. i made it easier for his left but still took quite a considerable amount of time. anyway didn't really get to finish the next step becuz jin came by to play handball. lol played a game against him and some dude with mike. lost but it was all good. jin and mike went to get subways and i ended up freeloading some of it off of them. AHHH SHIT i forgot that i ate that. anyway. jin was like theres not gonna be anyone for like 1-2 hrs so lets go over and watch amy and helen practice. so like w/e we went over and watched. they ended up going to lunch break and TOOK FOREVER. me and mike decided to headback to seward first and we saw that alex frankie conroy simon mike was already there... -_- anyway things passed and played a couple of games. omg i should stop playing. i freaking broke my own promise of not playing in the weekend but ends up where i played again and a few times too. my left arm is starting to get mad tired. i told myself its the phase where my arm is starting to get more brawlic so i can fuck shit up with my left like i already do. and my left leg is lmao. its slowly recovering and only getting slower if i continue to play. anyway day passes by and me annie conroy simon alex mike and mike dennis goes to pace to sit. then everyone except me and conroy goes to jog manhattan bridge. me and conroy then fuck around and talk about shit. we then end up sleeping or at least i know i did. i heard everyone come back but i was like fuck it continue sleeping. and then i wake up when everyone except annie goes to popeyes and dennis at mcdonalds. talk yapp and all that stuff. hmm it was quite interesting when prank calling random ppl that we know. mikes british accent was kinda funny since it had to do with harry potter and that nigga is british. anyway yap do all that stuff and then head home. hehe since mike was swiping pussy ass mike in for subway i was like come walk me home and he did. wut a faggot and he walked alex home too but not simon cuz he live mad far. anyway thats my day.. hopefully it doesnt rain in the mornin or ima have to teach mike the reaction lesson in the rain :D pandah out to get his beauty sleep.

so tired and painful pt 2

hmmm another day.
therapy session mad tiring. woke up in the morning at 8:58 to swipe my mom in and get the monthly card. then waited till like 10ish to headout. got there mad boring did what i do and shit. but mad chilled in there. got out and it was pouring and shit. i was like oh wells and only worried about my shoe getting wet. train took a while but i looked at my phone and saw a text from susan and i called her and found out she was at jacks so i headed there. the rain died down quite a bit as i got to grand on the m14a. omg i sat on a seat where the only spot was dripping water. theni moved somewhere else. got to jacks and angel susan tony annie and alex was there. so yeah i dont want to say everyone that i saw in order and stuff cuz its mad work and mad boring to say. ate at mr. tea place and was so not worth it. nvr going back there but maybe only for the bubble teas and drinks. headed back to jacks and sat again. talked blah blah yeah all that blah blah then headed to seward when it stopped raining. mad humid from the rain man. said i wasn't going to play... omg i broke my inner promise. im ashamed of myself. and i did bad too even worse. bout to cut myself. but hmm i know im not emo so thats not gonna happen. played mad games... and got my leg extra tired and more pain. everyone slowly left. omg so mad at the money game. me and dennis against mike and jin. so mad at myself. did so bad that game. i promise i will work my ass off when i can use my leg properly. got kinda mad and punched the wall and i found out i got a minor cut from it but nothing to blog about lmfao. but hmm maybe i shouldn't have served with my right hand. my knee is starting to hurt a lot more. ended up being me mike mike and jin. went to jacks for a while and decided to go home after we saw a few flashes of lightning. started drizzling when passed grand st. then it started pouring when i got to the entrance of my home. omg my knee was beating pretty hard when i got home. mad uncomfortable so right now i got it iced. peace out boring day pandah out to the bamboo stash

so tired and painful

hehe way to start my day off.

i wake up at like 430ish? because my brother got surgery for his shoulder in flushing. so i wait it out until my moms and brother leaves so that i can use the computer peacefully. so i turn it on, leave restaurant city on, and play pokmemon lmfao. i played till 6 something and then went to sleep.woke my ass up at 7-8ish and played some more and then went back to sleep and woke up at 10:40. i spammed call mikewu because today we were suppose to practice in handball school. where i am the teacher and i help him out since he wants it. i find out he in sat prep. i was like wow i thought we were going to do this in the morning and he was like nah around 12 and i was like oh wells and played pokemon till 12. then he IM's me and i was like blah blah blahh lets head to seward blah and i do. i told him to leave first and i was purposely late and nigga still shows up at least 20mins later than me. oh wells played handball a couple of times. took the court with mike from flower heads. played a few games. OMG if i had had the court from the beginning. the order wouldn't have been so screwed up. that weird white guy came out of nowhere when even though its not my court and i never even heard him call at all. doesn't even get the way calling goes and how a 4on works. damn and he sucks too. ive seen him practice going mad hard on cuts when it doesn't even work. he pisses off after i say something cuz basically everyone was against him. anyway. won first game. throw 4on. beat them. play with dennis against susan and florence. then let dennis sub me with michael against angel and florence. then 4on with simon and qihua against mike garjin. then me and mike lose against simon and qihua cuz nigga picks on me. then i played 4on with dennis cuz its his turn against alan and ian. then play against qihua brian then simon subs back brian and they win. yeah that game fucked me up. it hurts my leggg sooooo much that i can't even sit right. hit up pace and play 5 card poker with draws. annie simon left already but came back in a short while. as tonylam would say he and mike with biker gang came along. hit up some volleyball. then they left and we hit up popeyes. hmm since we were basically out of the other table me mike dennis left to chill on some benches. did our stuff and we saw dennis leave as we got him to the train. walked our ass to pace and met up with the rest. sat and talk about shit with mike. then we ended up leaving. OH YEAH lmao that bum ass nigga. sound so sad that he got fucked up by mexicans.Mexicans.MEXICANS. anyway tired as fuck from today. bout to put handball down for a while cuz i need to heal asap so i dont stall my recovery. i want to jog asap which is like according to my doctor is in 3months or so which is good.ite peace pandah out bout to play some more pokemon. :]

simple and clean

wow a bad way to start things off. first things first. POKEMON in the morning eat breakfast/lunch. dress. go to doctor appointment for 1:30. i made it at 1:09 and i waited. 2:00 and i waited. i then asked the desk ppl about the things and they were like ur name is not up yet ur the 2nd person. i go sit back down and i wait as mad ppl names r called. its 3:00. then its 3:30 and i still havent been called. then later when there was like 2 ppl left including myself i went in myself and it happened to be my freaking turn. its always like this bs. come in for appointment and takes like few hours for it to be correct. and when it is my turn it takes like less than 2 mins to finish. then i wait for my sheets of paper and left to seward. by the time i got there it was 4:20... wow what a day. oh yeah. when the m14a got to delancey i saw someone walking across the st. it was amylau lmao. i was deciding really fast in my head if i should get out of the bus and go with her or just get to the next stop and meet her up there. so then i processed really fast saw the doors still opened and dashed out or some would have said hopped out. walked with amylau to sewards and chilled or thats what some would use. screw that i got other things in mind.

so i dink my left is getting a lot better. its more accurate than my right for close shots but for far range my right got more power and accuracy. oh i forgot that the doctor said that for overall healing it was around 6-7 months and for RUNNING it was 3months. i was kinda happy to hear that meaning i can jog around that time. doesnt matter if its going to be winter around then im gonna jog till my heart's content. anyway so ive been seeing that my left has really gotten a lot better. my lobs are mad accurate since it manages to hit right before the long line. and my left kills are nice for an angle but not straight shots lol. DIEW NAY dennis. got mad easy points in the beginning from doing some weak ass shots and i couldn't reach it. but it was 21 13 so im still kinda satisfied. hmm when i played with garjin against amy and mike it seemed easy to get with my left. which shows improvement. but omg it kinda pissed me off since we were no where near being pushed and we pushed it either way. two times also. that kinda got me mad. so later when we were playing against ernest and harry i was like screw it when it was 6 1 our lead. my leg was also giving out so it worked out well.

LMAO i forgot i had my blog on and i was continuing playing pokemon. lmfao.

simple and clean was my 8th grade jam yo because me and my friend played kingdom hearts and simple and clean was the normal ending song. simple and clean by utada hikaru yep.

when you walk away, you don't hear me say, please, oh baby, don't go, simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight, it's hard to let it go.

everytimeeeeee

look at this photograph, every time i do it makes me laugh.

random start. my fridge died out somehow today like when i came home and opened the fridge for like 2 seconds to get some milk. epic moment. gotta get new fridge before shit starts smelling upstairs.

hmmm so yeah i started off the day pretty normally. woke up at 8:58 and started playing pokemon. ate some rice around 10:00 to fill in for breakfast and lunch. then headed out to seward at like 10:30ish. got there and saw garjin playing some person that i found out was a fob later on. anyway alex came and so did ernest. only came to chill for lunch break for syep. they all left so good thing kelby came to kill some time. he played a game and wow lame all i did was listen to music. then he left and fucking fobs came and took my court wth. i was sitting there and they assumed i wasn't playing and started playing. oh wells jason came and so did michael and they lost. like wth its those lame ass fobs who talk mad shit in toisan and sometimes canto and i understand it pretty well... bout to fuck them up. anyway kevin xiang beats them. me alex play jason michael 4on and won. played kevin xiang lost cuz xiang picked up my corner the last few points. chilled and watched people come and go. hmm. go go go played kathryn and umm hay? hai? lmfao don't know how to spell his name. but her boyfriend currently and pretty fucking nasty. when i first started playing handball or ANALYZING at grand i've seen him there and he pretty nasty. i remember once it was him and george playing against other ppl and i forgot but they lost. lmao. oh yeah and a lefty.... shit im jealous, i want to be a lefty. ima teach my child how to use their opposite hand to be equally strong on both arms and hands.
moving on. i was playing them and lost obviously. i could do so much better if i can jump on the leg i am more dominant in jumping in. for some strange reason i dink my left hand is improving a lot and it may even be more accurate than my right but it might be because of my recovery period and my posture. played this other game and gave out during the middle of the game and let ernest subbed me. hmm. watched dennis play handicap against mike and some other dude and won. then i decided to test my abilities in my current state against dennis singles. it was a 11 point game and i ended up scoring 7 and he won. i swear. my stupid leg gotta heal. OMG it looks like i can move faster at least bcuz ive been practicing how to walk. hehe improvement is what i like to see.

headed to pace cuz im nice. played the up and down game and won some drinks. headed to popeye to sit for a sec and then left to go home. walked home with kevin tonylam and talked about random crap. and here i am at home then i played pokemon gold and is mad about having 3 pokemon at the 7th badge. typhlosion gyrados and togepi which wont evolve at all... mad hard to make it happy. anyway i have doctors appointment tomorrow and im not sure if i can make it to therapy at 2:00 and the appointment is at 1:30. i'll have to talk to them or something to set things straight. oh yeah i been getting these annoying ass headaches from lack of something that i dont know of. maybe its sleep? who knows. head tired seeya panda out

you're my ice cream, my sweetest ice cream

hmmm what a day what a day. woke up around 10:03 and ate and downloaded POKEMON YELLOW GET AT ME. got up to 4th badge in like 2 hrs mad slow... but that means im like all in my 30s which is pretty ok. i then left around 130 to therapy. good shit there was m14a which basically takes me there to 14st and 2nd ave then i walked 3 blocks up. hmm interesting apparently i get to do the mechanical exercises. shit was lame. i couldn't wait to leave to check out handball. oh yeah i got this random call from this company on thursday about first come first serve job. i scheduled an interview just in case i might want to take up the offer but apparently i was like fuck it since it was located at flushing. then i got a call today saying about the missed interview on friday and i was like something urgent came up. MAD PRO in sticky situations. but i scheduled it for 630pm today but nvr went and i got a voicemail from it. i then saved the phonenumbers that i got called from the company and named it blocked lmfao. anyway i headed to seward afterwards on m14a again and there i am. called last and shit and took forever for me to get on.by the time i got on, me and qi hua busted mike and brians ass, then stephen and jessicas ass, and then the 3rd game. shit it was like 8 up low low. then when wendy was gonna kill for fun or whatever. she smashed it right on my left knee or around that area. it felt kinda weird bcuz it didn't really hurt but i didn't really feel like walking. so i hit like 3 volleys and then i was like to qihua to get a sub. i sat down cuz i was tired and thirsty. hmmm clouds didn't look so white so i was like lets gtfo in a little bit. left with alex and mike and got home. played some POKEMON YELLOW and then ended up downloading pokemon gold as well. brb gonna fix on this later, dota time :]

-editing duhh

so yea im back from dotah and im tight cuz it was 5v5 and jacky left, then vince left. he was doing bad... there was like no teamwork at all. could have stopped weaver from being a potential carry but when we were going down the river he didnt stun and ended up having rudy killed from nukes. and then it was basically a 5v3 for the most part and then a 4v3 but we still lost. their farm regardless had more money. our heroes were not even the best possible choices. we lost in the end oh wells we lasted pretty long and fucked shit up.

hmmm i forgot what i was going to say b4. well whatever. tomorrow im free and there is like no plans. this summer is kinda lame. for a fun summer u really need money... and i got no money so i back down from the fun stuff. omg i been spending mad money on food and drinks... i gotta cut down. thats why i leave my money at home to starve myself. OMG i found out i lost 17 pounds during a 1month period. seems unhealthy but i actually thought i gained weight seeing that all i did was eat and sleep and sit at home on my bed. im 207, IMPROVEMENT BABY thats what i like to see.

this is to all those i have talked to about. i hate retarded fucks that is all.

there really is nothing to do nowadays. i missed out on kareoke, fireworks, skating, movies, HANDBALL and all those fun stuff. fucking knee screwing me over. i could have been able to get my full syep job money roll but i couldn't even attend the first 2 weeks and now i dont know whats the situation. man life sucking mad dicks right now but you know, shit happens.

lmao taeyangs shit sound so weird. sound like he crying or some shit. i expected a higher pitch but i guess i gotta give him props for dropping his balls cuz my voice is limited to low pitch. clap clap, how about a round of applause.

healing- pokemon center hehe

man interesting day. somewhat at least. so yeah first thing i remembered was my mom asking if i had therapy and i said no and continued sleeping. then woke up at 10:09 and complained to my moms after i showered that she didnt wake me up at 9 cuz u noe i was gonna watch from 10:00 to w/e but fuck that i guess. got my ass out at 11 cuz somehow the computer dragged on and i was kinda sweating and figuring out what to wear since today was suppose to be some rainbow thingy. hmm i haven't wore green for mad long bcuz of my stupid kermits breaking in the front. if it wasn't for that i'd still be wearing it consistently. anyway got to seward around 1110ish? and i saw thomas lmao nigga is tight cuz he got there at 10 but was pussy cuz he didn't want to go in by himself. but im tight that i figured that there might be more games at the kiddy seward park like there was last year. since we didnt see amy at seward high park i assumed she was there and u noe what? i was right. dam it all.
amy's shit had just started apparently. mad interesting even though it was mad heated up since the stupid ass sun was like magnified on me.

ohhhh sidestory. order of appearance. thomas + me, mikewu, susan, annie, alex, dennis, simon + tony, then hmmm i forgot either conroy first or chris + james first then lastly jessica but yeah memory is successful today :]

shit it was mad hot. oh baby i remembered me and thomas were betting. NIGGAH BACKED OUT. it was $5 bet and i was against him when he went for amy's team. he was like u fucked uppppp. i was like nah, when u lose the bet, ima buy them a drink and say u did good and still got some loose change to spare :D hmmm girls here and there giving me headaches. Oh yeah won against chris for win by 5 for navy blue against his grey/gray team. there another dollar. im tight that i lost the double shit where me and alex went against dennis and mike for red team against black team. ITS BECAUSE THE BLACK BENCHED THEIR BETTER PLAYERS. anyway im up $2 and mike owe me 50cents. MOVING ONNNNN.

got slushie with susan of mango. i would have chose some other flavor but i didn't want to ask so i got the only slushie i heard since susan got one before me. and smartly enough we got the matching color straws for our shirt. blah blah blah, jacks, blah, pace. played contact for dumb long. LOSING WORDS. then they played that down and up shit game. i didn't want to play cuz i dont like slapjack cuz it builds up too much tension and i don't like what it does to me. blah blah, leave with simon and tony. blah blah they have conversation and i stay tired. hmm jacks is somehow opened around late 9ish and then left afterwards. faggots then left at essex st to check out girls from the bars i assume. then hit up home. yes i can walk up the stairs better now. hehe, shitty day. time for doctors appointment tomorrow. panda out

New Day

looking at everything in a certain view and then looking the exact difference is my specialty. wants to change into something more different but dont work out. keep it short, cuz tomorrows a new day and the future got more nights

light up

hmm so i didn't want to spend 10$ on ice skating since i don't believe i can handle it with my current condition of my knee and i wouldn't make the best out of it. oh wells, at least im watching my health this time. so i chilled at home playing MEGAMAN battlenetwork 5 & 6, team colonel & falzar. shit is mad fun since i haven't got to the storyline. im mad i started 6 b4 5 though, now i know it actually ended. lamers. anyways chilled at home till around 3ish then headed out to seward. lets go seward.

i entered a different atmosphere. when i passed by the seward gate right where the ball usually gets roofed or w/e im like hmmm, wtf happened. so i just keeep walking and walking and go in. then i see a few ppl so i sit down and try to cool off since i sweated from walking 4 blocks lmfao. i hit around for practice and then got a game later on around 5ish 6ish won first game with kevin and then lost 2nd. my leg gave out and i get mad when i can't go for the ball since i can't bend fast and i clearly can't run. its disappointing. oh yeah kevin was raging cuz of bike being fucked around, forgot what but yeah rage was for first game, 2nd was tired status. later hit up jacks, then to pace.

walk walk to pace. aaron ian kevin me simon tony to pace. yep yep. talked with conroy frankie michael about life and shit lmao. then contact game with annie conroy mike simon susan tony. i feel nice since i actually got some of the words today. hehe getting better in vocabulary. IMPROVEMENT is the #1 thing i want to see. so yeah annie simon susan mike decided they were hungry and headed to popeyes for food. me and tony stayed and chilled with james,chris, and will and talked about men shit. lmao good talk. then ended up leaving later on and yeah that was about it. hoping to be able to play better and do more stuff.

light up is an interesting song. fucking brother overplaying it and the chorus got stuck in my head. by drake and ft jayz? idk i forget. even when the sun goes down we gonna make this bitch light up.

throw it down

todays sunday... or monday w/e ppl think but all thats important is that its a new day. another day to make changes. i know shit isn't possible but i'm going with my morality and thats how its going to go down. hmm thinking pretty hard to myself about school and shit and apparently i fucked myself over. i have to take care of the problems at that before i can concentrate on other stuff, u catch my drift? but its what i got to go with or i cant be me unless others would like a fake, alright, fuck them hoes. hehe i like this

anyways ive been tired lately since i have nothing to do much and i sleep till the afternoons which is quite a bad habit even though i have slept late and woke up early consistently in the past.idk how i do it but its what gets me through the day, its meh. so yeah pace... kinda wanted to play the killer game but i guess it ended up with that drug dealing game.. wouldn't mind playing, would love to play it, but i guess its majority win. but the game is reallly simple, and thats what confuses me. oh wells. also the other game... i forgot its name lmao but i suck at guessing since my word bank suck, and im kinda mad that annie thought about that cliterus or however uspell it in one try lmao. despite all that walked home in pain and going to hit the bed.

deuces

what to look forward to

i want to mention first, that frankies asshole got me into that cody simpson shit of iyiyi, sounds mad weird but i like it now.

moving on with the day

damn i woke up mad late todays. woke my ass up around uhh 11ish which is pretty late since i usually wake up early for some stuff. i guess its because handball has been cut short for me and also, maybe other stuff are hindering my actions. who knows. so i ate and dressed up to go to therapy. omfg i swear, when i waited for the stupid fucking m15, it took at least 20-30mins cuz i left home at 1, go to train station around 110 i'd say and the bus didnt even come around 130, but it came a little afterwards. i got there did shit i did yesterday, lame and shit, but i got it a little better than yesterday so thats improvement i guess. left that joint around 320 and got to seward around 340. all i did was watch games. omg i miss playing handball. still sorry about that game with annie cuz i couldn't do much for annie since i couldn't hit for life. anyways the only highlight game i liked was when ka hin and kelby played against the chris dude and anthony dude. was kinda epic since i saw them messing around and then started fucking shit up later.

blah blah blah things happened games played that day, oh yeah and recording status was epic cuz obviously the best recorder was there regardless of my epic shaking.

went to go eat at this malaysian place. curry beef with rice? shit didnt even taste like beef. tasted like mix of mad meat. even jason said that shit tasted like some other meat, like cha siew or something. and oh yeah, seeing that movie with no sound got me wanting to watch it. KUNG FU HUSTLE, lets gooooooo, internet is win. so we were basically resting after eating, and my knee was hurting like hell, had to get some ice out of the water to cool it. OH YEAH lmfao there was a bug on iris. holy shit and also that lady got the fucking wrong bill. shit was 65$!? THATS JUST MADNESS we probably ordered like everything under 8 and 7 ppl so that would probably hit to a max of 56. luckily harry has the eagle eye and looked right at the bill that we never even asked for. anyways we got the bill and it was 35 or so lmfao.

walk blah blah walk some more blah blah, pace

so yeah ended up at pace cuz iris seemed like she wanted to chill a little longer at pace first before she goes off to pennsylvania or however uspell that shit. surprisingly it was a huge group already so we just added into it. hmm to sum it up, 3 old ass niggah stalkers, a group of kids, and basically randomness. ended up leaving pace a little later, GOOD SHIT MIKE walked me home cuz it was boring regardless and his reason for walking me home was he was bored too and didnt want to go homeeee, lameeee but also my reason lmao.

basically that was the end of the day. BYE IRIS see you next time :[

hurts so much

ima try to say hurts so much a lot in this post to use it constantly and annoy the shit out of people. so today i woke up and was tired. duh. but my back was tired and it hurts so much. used computer and then waited till around 1230ish in the afternoon to go to therapy. lmfao it hurts so much to walk, i looked cripple, am cripple, and walked to the m9 station. holy shit waited 10mins or so for the stupid bus and the m9 appear. i was looking at the stops it made on the bus stop but i thought it was wrong so yeah took it then noticed it zoomed into straight passed 14st i was like wow, the bus stop stops were correct. omfg also while i was sitting on the seats my knee hurts so much. and when i got off it hurts so much. i ended up at 20 st 1st ave where my middle school was located at and i walked down 3 blocks and 1 ave, hurts so much. walked to the therapy place and it hurts so much. anyways got to the 4th floor signed some shit, mad work, and started this lame ass therapy stuff. some exercise to help strengthen my muscles and get my leg on the go. the best part of it was the inclined triangle thingy to elevate my knee level so that it is higher than my heart to place the swelling and blood flow back to the body. OH YEAH AND THE FUCKING ICEEEEEEE soooo relaxing, it doesnt hurts so much there but felt soooo gooood. darn apparently its scheduled for around 4 weeks and i get to choose my times at least. so i got the fuck out walked to the m14 stop and good shit the first bus that came was m14a. took that shit all the way to grand/essex and walked to seward for the epic walk. lmao i was slower than a turtle u can say. walked in and good shit iris save me the seat. hehe. even though it hurt to sit with my knee angled it was a seat afterall. omg so sorry anniee. apparently i didnt noe i would be so horrible with my unstable knee. the first hit was luck of course cuz i hit as hard as possible and i ended up cutting it slightly and it happened to kill hehe. sorry sorry sorry :[ so i sat down mostly the rest of the day and analyzing games to see improvement and skill level and what has happened in the world while i was dead. alot cuz i dont know shit and annie wont tell me that name dat everyone knows of.... anyways blah blah blah conroy simon dennis michael iris went to soho annie stayed for some strange reason and we ended up going to dumplings then to pace. damn it was mad lame. i couldn't move my leg around and it hurt to sit down, aiyahh hurts so much. then as tlam would say, the biker gang came and chilled too. then came charles, after that soho crew came. chat chilled blah blah blah biker gang left, and then annie conroy simon went to eat or was that vice versa? who knows either way they came back years later and i ended up going home myself. that trip home was tiring as fuck. my tissue or w.e on my knee was overused and it started to be painful and it hurts so much. OMFG i forgot mad assholes started throwing shit at me at pace, annie, kevin, ian, and i forget. but it hurts so much. lmfao. my back, lower back, knee, ass, thigh, shin, heel all hurts so much, wtf. so yeah pandah bout to be out to eat some bamboo. pice

we can take it to the sky pass the moon through the galaxy

today was a good day, ima have me a great night.

today was the doctors appointment. lmfao the doctors appointment that i didnt even schedule and was never made. because of that i waited in the fucking place for 3 hrs + in fucking pain cuz my knee was hurting. i was like i smelled like shit to my mom, but she insisted that it was the clothes, the shit must stink then wtf. shit was sooooo lame. when my mom went up to talk to one of the ppl she found out that the dude who we first talked to misplaced some documents so i was somewhere else. but then i was like next after 2 or so. after i got in my room, not even 5mins and i had to leave. that was kinda funny and stupid at the same time.but it was all good since i took my splint or w/e its called off. i always thought it was called a brace but who knows. then the bandage wrapping, something tight under it, and then something to cover the bleeding from the surgery day. shit it was mad sticky. but its all good.

hmmm after that i waited to schedule my physical therapy appointment, damn mad work, ohhh yeahh my knee is mad hard to bend. the most i can bend is around 70 degrees which is good enough for me to sit on something and not feel pain. lame i found out that my physical therapy starts tomorow. two times a week for four weeks thats what the doctor said. darn i thought seward was dead so i decided not to go. turns out that everyone was there, as iris said, and i instead took a cab home with moms. fucking dumb taxi driver going to fucking refuel while still on duty. and ended up wasting more money than going there.

YESS it was time for the epicness. i got to take a fucking shower. i tried to help myself by constantly bending my knee but that shit just resisted like a bitch. mad dead cells on the surface of my body omfg. i scrubbed it all off and i felt good. felt like a pheonix which reborned from under its dust or some shit like that. and here i am writing about nonsense but its all good cuz i am a bored niggah. i plan to go to seward tomorow but watch there be no one. ill be tight. ill bring a handball just in case.

Up - Justin Bieber. fucking brother got me liking the song. this is how it went. he was like yo have u heard of up by justinbieber? i was like nahh he was like this shit is hot. he started singing the lyrics, i was like stop it and so it ended there. but i still ended up listening to it. and it just started playing right now coincidentally hmm.

Baby we can go
Nowhere but up
From here
My dear
Baby we can go nowhere but up
Tell me what we got to fear
We can take it to the sky pass the moon through the galaxy
As long as you're with me
Honestly (honestly) with the strength of our love
We can go nowhere but up

hmmm? YES

so like i got doctors tomorrows and shit and i get like a checkup or some analysis of how my leg is going. so far that shit is getting better than i thought. one day which was like yesterday it was hurting like hell and then today it was fine and i can even walk on it but limping. damn that shit hurt like a bitch when i stood on both my legs for too long. hmmm handball miss so much.. ima try to forget how to use my right and rely on my left. its good training even though it'll make my dominant hand rusty as fuck. hmm i dink i broke like some crazy ass record of staying in my bed for like lets see, lets do some MATH!!


monday to tuesday is 8 days cuz a week passed by so thats 8 days
there is 24 hours in a day and i was sitting for 23 hrs a day

8 x 23 is 184 and the maximum possible hours in 8 days is 192

damn lmao ive been out of bed for 8 hrs in 8 weeks at most

definiitely been hibernating this summer. but i get to go out tomorow and ima sweat bricks. im tight i was playing advance wars 2 for the whole day even though ive already played that shit a milion times. DOTA i would play but no one is on for some reasons. omfg my mangekyou sharingan has been on for too long... im starting to loose vision and its getting blurry. fuck. im about to go outside early one day and stare at the blue sky AND hopefully that shit improves it SOMEHOW.

anyways today was first day of syep heh but apparently i cant make it, luckily jose, HSS staff was talking to me about that shit, and i was like ive been home for a week cuz i had surgery and he was like i'll do something about it.. i dink thats what he said. and omfg he mentioned getting my diploma to him but i made the legit excuse that i didnt make it to school cuz i was out that week.. hopefully i graduated and got my diploma so i can gtfo out of school.. or hopefully theres still student metrocards and ill just take it to use. HEHE. this is pandah. out.

july 4th, much to think about

today is pretty lame, but thats not surprising as my whole week is like that groundhog movie, lameeeee, repititive and boring. im missing out on mad shits... like fucking independence day fireworks. it was shit because a certain somewhat didn't get to see it in live action. lame as hell as i watched it on the fucking t.v. kept complaining to mom in chinese "da mm ho tai" lmao. i dont know how i do it but im getting through this week! yes good shit. damn i gotta get my diploma if luckily i did achieve a local diploma and give it to jose, and i gotta start syep at that daycare place, gotta go to doctors on wednesday, gotta get the fuck out of the house. damn mad shit to do.

hmmm been thining about shit since thats one of the very few things that i can do... been thinking about when i get my fucking bandage,brace, everything off. shit is a nuisance. i figured out a theory that i have no strength in my left leg because all the blood circulation is cut off from the bandage which makes it hurt as i lift it, hmmm nice theory.but yeah fuck that theory, no blood is making my heel hurt like a bitch and its boiling from this heating pad. been thinking about handball as well. shit ima have to really put my pace up in training since this injury has placed me on lockdown at home. and the heat outside is like about to release its bankai or some shit, reaching 100 degree and shit omfg and im about to go out and sweat like a beast and not allowed to take shower bcuz of my leg? gg fuck outta here.
HMMM now that ive been thinking about it, everyone is improving and im still stuck here and might have to go through this rehabilitation shit omg. i need to further increase my practice hours to keep up or i wont be able to catch up and also beat garmint. nigger still got singles. but hmm frankie ok i see you, challenging me to a left only singles, i got u, right off the bat ima play u to see where we at aite?

oh yeah gotta give it up to wayny here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=on0g9hoD314

what to say....

so i just found out not so long ago it was july 4th, i forgot because i usually do it at night of july 4th not the morning. but yeah i dont think i can do it this year, what a bummer. :/ i heard ppl are going to battery too but in my condition im going to sleep only. i want to go out and sleep at pace...

ive been building up my own patterns since ive been sleeping alot lately and its become alot easier as well. the pill is shit now since it takes a while for it to take effect as i am already dying from walking to the bathroom. its so heated up in my brace along with that stupid bandage. it probably smells like shit. oh yeah i thought i was sweating some medicine smell through my pores but i found out my mom used some medicinal rub on the exposed skin inside my brace so i thought i was sweating medicine smell. what to say... oh yeah busted some ass in pudge wars lmao like a 5min game, lame as hell, and also couldnt dota with mike,tony,simon,harry,thomas,harry,mike,and some1 else im not sure but ended up dotaing on bnet with kevin,tony,HYOCHUL,rudy, so it was all good.wrecked ass in both games, lycan and silencer is win. hehe.

so yeah i want to go out so bad. fireworks are heard and it makes me uneasy since i want to watch it too... i wants to go to seaport or some shit or go wherever its being held. or at least want to sit at pace and look at the sky or some shit and be an emo fuck. i just cant wait to take it off so i can improve in handball as well as mad people are catching up and mad people are leaving me behind... peace im improving in my mind as well so its balanced out, sleeps. hibernating like a pandah

replay, or fast forrwarddd

omgg so yeah here to talk about the SAME fucking shit, aint i a real speaker. but yeah, my pain on my kneee started to get worse cuz it actually started to hurt me and pain me. i couldnt really sleep with the painkiller wtf, is this even painkillers o.o wtf man or is the effects starting to wear off.it says 1-2tablet every 4 to 6 hrs as needed pain maximum 8 per day. lmao i dont fucking know but that shit is some painful shit and i need to learn how to walk again, again wtf. but oh wells i was talking to zi qian yesterday i remember and i was like at least u have to go through the same shit now so im good :] lmao im an asshole.

so yeah what the fuck did i do today so far... I MISSED KARAOKE NOOOOOOOO :/ bum ass knee!! im mad that i was hoping that dennis might drive his car but that was a failed hope. i've been listening to the same songs over and over again, how fun.. but the only song that i look forward is never let you go and wedding dress english. its so fun to listen and sing the lyrics lmao.

oh shit so like i was noticing, that all thats happening is happening this fucking week wtf. everytime important shit or fun shit happens im not there to experience it. its like an inevitable part of fate that i have to suffer NUUUU. pisses me off and make me gloomy ]; but to make it look like im doing something im doing curls with my left hand and some modified crunches since i cant bend my left knee. hehe its something that helps get me through the day other than sleep. im surprised i got shit to say even though all thats happened has been on the fucking bed lmao. oh yeah i want to play dota too but my knee doesnt allow me to sit correctly when on computer desk. but at least i got to play omgpop yesterday, good shit iris, i still own u. u suck LMAO that is all

Kindaaa lost it

the days are passsing byyy soooo sloww, if u watched bleach its like that scientist dude fighting the espada scientist dude and used the superhuman formula which made his mind very capable of superhuman speed but his body not omfgggg. so yeah watching one piece was kinda lamee too and ive been watching full metal alchemist brotherhood if thats what harry was talking about on sunday but yeah kinda interesting. so yea im mad they didnt have naruto up for last weeks manga even though i completely forgot what happened, and one piece is just filling it all up with past events of luffy and ace and finally gets to the point where he doesnt know how he came up with the idea of becoming pirate king or something. wow lame im talking about animes and mangas.

holy shit i had this scary ass dream where this dude kept turning around whenever i was around but yeah i dont want to mention it cuz it scared me and woke me up.

yeah ive been eating a lot less and sleeping a lot more wtf is this shit. at least its some sort of mechanism my body does to balance my mass out? hopefully. omg i almost lost it the other day. i was just thinking about random white walls and i was wearing a strayjacket but i wasnt resisting cuz i kinda lost it then. luckily i have my best friend sleep to help me out since thats all ive been getting along with. i gotta wait for 2a.m. to take my next pill so i can sleep. what a bitch. ima come out soon for the hell of it cuz my ass is tired of home, back is tired of home, neck is tired of home, but then my smell is probably getting close to the smell of a bum cuz i cant take a fucking shower like wtf. man im taking a shower once this shit comes off.